30 Days of Submission | Day 6

I feel the roots of my submission are from the people around me, influence of social media and also my preference. I think it really has something to do with my childhood but not entirely. My father passed away when i was at a young age, and I think that caused me to find someone who is like a father figure that I missed during those days who would guide and discipline me.  I know I still got the discipline from my mother but father and mother figure are far from each other. I think that's what they call momma's boy and Daddy's girl. I do not necessarily know if that's one of the reasons but social media really influenced me a lot. I know you cannot learn everything from the internet but I exposed myself too in Sub/Dom relationships and more kinks that is why it really influenced my way of thinking and also how would I act. 

For me, submission is not just about sexual thrill. I feel being submissive is already in me that someone or even myself can't remove it to my system. I know that I can be submissive inside our outside of the bedroom. My Daddy and I are also in a relationship and I know my Daddy still don't want me to feel dominated at all times because we are still a couple. I still like a little freedom he is giving even though I'm his sub and he does very well. He's not giving too much and too little just the right amount. I think those are the roots of my submission.