It has been a quite journey for me as well as to my Daddy dom who has been with me right from the start. Entering a dom/sub relationship with him holds a different bond between us. I still considered myself as a newbie from this lifestyle way back and looking to myself now, I am happy to be what I have become. Before we start, I will be honest, I am not a positive sub, I lack self-confidence, no organization, always staying in my comfort zone but when I met my Daddy..he helps me to grow and develop my own character.
There are times that I will hesitate and doubt myself if I can do it, I have made a lot of mistakes too that led to misunderstandings, there are times that I question myself if being a submissive is really for me. I am always afraid to try something new..explore because before, I believed that once I get uncomfy, I would really reject the idea which is not supposed to be. Change and exploration will really make us uncomfy at first because simply, we are not used to it. I slowly embrace, and allow myself to really explore and discover more.
Mistakes, I cannot count how many times I forgot to do my tasks, failed to do it, overlooked, broke some rules, made my Dom upset or disappointed with me..I am lucky he never gave up on me. I believe that mistakes are only the stepping stones for your goal. He is understanding and always gives me chances to make improvements. He is not the type of dom who will really control everything, which I like. We are a couple, we are dom/sub, we let not only a relationship grow but also ourselves. That's why lately, I am really happy that he always mentions that I have learned and I became better. I am loving who I become now but I know to myself that I can do better.. I hope for more self-discovery! :))
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