Better version of myself

It has been a quite journey for me as well as to my Daddy dom who has been with me right from the start. Entering a dom/sub relationship with him holds a different bond between us. I still considered myself as a newbie from this lifestyle way back and looking to myself now, I am happy to be what I have become. Before we start, I will be honest, I am not a positive sub, I lack self-confidence, no organization, always staying in my comfort zone but when I met my Daddy..he helps me to grow and develop my own character. 

There are times that I will hesitate and doubt myself if I can do it, I have made a lot of mistakes too that led to misunderstandings, there are times that I question myself if being a submissive is really for me. I am always afraid to try something new..explore because before, I believed that once I get uncomfy, I would really reject the idea which is not supposed to be. Change and exploration will really make us uncomfy at first because simply, we are not used to it. I slowly embrace, and allow myself to really explore and discover more. 

Mistakes, I cannot count how many times I forgot to do my tasks, failed to do it, overlooked, broke some rules, made my Dom upset or disappointed with me..I am lucky he never gave up on me. I believe that mistakes are only the stepping stones for your goal. He is understanding and always gives me chances to make improvements. He is not the type of dom who will really control everything, which I like. We are a couple, we are dom/sub, we let not only a relationship grow but also ourselves. That's why lately, I am really happy that he always mentions that I have learned and I became better. I am loving who I become now but I know to myself that I can do better.. I hope for more self-discovery! :))

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Risky Frisky Video Call

Entry# 2 09.24.20

This day we scheduled our video call because I'm never alone and just when we have a chance. My Daddy decided to do extra to make our call much fun *winks* and there goes the vibrator that he can control. We connected it and you know where I placed it hihi. We talked normally first then just a few mins the fun will start. (Btw my sis is just outside and she can barge in anytime because we share rooms.) I think it adds to my excitement that I'm doing something really naughty with my Daddy and I could get caught any minute. 

I try to make straight face because I don't want to let him know that I'm getting affected with the vibrations and just continue to talk. He playfully increase and decrease the speed and I can't help but to whimper already because the teasing is getting intense. I would glance at the door incase my sister will get in and stare again with my Daddy. I'm staring at him and seeing my face on the screen. I know how he likes to see me enjoying and being controlled by him. It makes me so horny too that I'm being controlled and watched by him. He wants me just too keep looking at him. He don't want to leave my eyes on him. He keeps saying "Look at me" and I feel hypnotized with his words and just really be controlled by him.

He don't need to see my whole body just to get aroused, even just my reactions he gets aroused. I plead to him if I can cum and he granted. I came sooo hard on my first cum but the vibrations didn't stop. I came the second time again still looking at him. I thought it was over but it isn't. I came hard the 3rd time and feel my legs shaking from intense cumming. I thank him and continued our call. It was a really memorable naughty call that I would love to try again! 

What about you guys? Have you done any memorable risky calls too with your sub/doms? Don't be shy. You can share it below the comment section. ^_^

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The Angrier the Rougher

Entry#1 08.03.20 

It wasn't the first time but it was on August 3, 2020 where my Dom and I had misunderstandings. It was normal for sub/dom relationships to happen. I broke his rule (not intentionally) even though I asked him because from what I understand. I really dislike when we are not fine and he told me to get ready for him at 3:30. I don't know what's going on his mind but me, I'm mixed between nervousness , excitement and also curiosity.

We started and he asked me some clips that arouses me a lot. I can feel that he's upset the way he uses words to me because it's more strict. He also instructed me to slap my tits hard which I did before but this time it's a lot of slaps. It's pain and pleasure for me and I knew I deserved this from disobeying him. I feel good that I'm getting this. I can feel the moist forming between my legs each time I slap my tits hard. The belt around my neck increases my arousal and from the videos I take from him.

He let me edge and do more vids for him before he let me cum. My Dom also came for me. I noticed that he's rougher and stricter to me even though I know that session  wasn't sort of punishment for him. I love the way he used and treated me after I did something wrong. I noticed also that I'm liking the pain. I guess I should purposely break the rules so he can take his anger on me? I won't complain *giggles* We cuddled after and felt much better, my Daddy never forgets his aftercare. It was really a memorable one. 

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