How did I become a little?

Now that I am in this age, I sometimes wonder how did it all start? Why did I end up liking this kind of relationship? How did I discover or develop my kinks? And how did I become a little? Now, I will give you a little flashblack..

I was in 6th Grade when I started to read in an e-book site called Wattpad. I became obsessive in reading romance, teen fictions, adventure, science fiction name it. Yep, my hopeless romantic self haha. So yeah here comes the 8th Grade. I was like.. the stories are too boring for me now, every plot now is cliché. 

Then, l discovered a R-18 Romance story oopss.. I will read whatever I want. No one can stop me haha. So basically, wattpad educated me. The terms that I am not familiar, I would search it up and ta-da! I have already watched porn but reading makes it safer! I was in 8th Grade when I experienced my first heart break then the stories I mostly read are men that are so mature, intimidating, dominant and such and that is when I promised myself that I won't like a boy anymore. I will find a man for me.

I just continued reading and that when I encountered terminologies such as Daddy, Little, Dominant, Age play, Pet Play, Submissive, Age-gaps, and BDSM. It all came to a point where I am just all reading about it and dreaming I will get a man and experience that too. I always find myself getting horny and would end up masturbating >//<. That is why I only got attracted to guys older than me. 

So I'm done with curiosity stage haha now after learning and having knowledge about it. What is the next step usually people do? I heard your answers! Yes we want to gain experience or try it ourselves because reading is not enough. I want more! I need more! 

At the age of 16-17 years old, My parents are strict and it is really impossible to find a guy that will be interested in me. No older guy will like a teenage girl like me. So I just explore in the Internet. There was a time here in our country were chatting online to strangers became so popular. I visited some sites and start chatting guys. 

It was no sexual at first but there was a guy who really persuaded me to take sexual pictures. I was so scared as it was my first time and I never take pictures of my private parts! I don't know what came into my mind but I obeyed him. I guess he was so experienced and so good at words and I felt the feeling I'm finding. Like it woke up my inner desires. 

I met a lot of guys and when I say a lot. It is really A LOT haha. As I meet each guy, the more I am discovering what are my preferences in finding my Daddy/Dom. There are guys who just wants to become sexual, there are guys who are so boring, weird, aggressive and more. I had a couple of Daddies but it really did not lasted for a long a time. Usually just a week or two and even just couple of days.

 I am really particular in finding my right Daddy. I did some pictures, videos also followed rules depending on the guy I met but no one really lasted because I would stop talking to them. I am now happy that I finally met my right Daddy and man for me. Hmm maybe I'll discuss more about that in different post :P

I really considered myself as a certified little! I love being little because I feel more comfortable and confident. I love being cared and getting attention and I also get to showcase my inner childish self haha. If you think you are interested in becoming a little, that is fine. There is nothing wrong with it. Do not be afraid to admit and be true to yourself. 

Soo that is the answer on "How did I become a litte?" I hope you had fun reading it and See you on next post!